I can't believe how differently I feel this time around. With our first child, she wasn't planned. I loved/love her more than life, but it was a big adjustment. We were going through some hard times in our relationship, basically still getting to know each other. Anyway, after I had her, it was so stressful. I was still pretty much mainstream. I had PPD and C was colicky and we just didn't have a very good time until she was about 4 months old.

I cannot believe the difference this time. It has only been a week, but I just feel like my whole attitude is different. I don't know if it is because we planned this child and I had to work so hard through my whole pregnancy to keep things on an even keel, or what, but I am just so grateful to have this baby here. ALL I want to do is hold him, put him to the breast, kiss him, smell his head, basically just gobble him up! I don't remember this overwhelming maternal instinct with C, which makes me kinda sad.

I am healing GREAT! My vaginal area was sore for about 6 hours after I had F and ever since, no problems. Doesn't hurt when I pee (had this with C, badly) and I have been up and moving around since I gave birth. And he was so BIG! A full three lbs. bigger then C. I only pushed for 15 minutes so I can't believe I don't have more trauma "down there". I am still working on the birth story and will post that soon. I also have a pic of F I want to post, but need to find time to do it.

C loves her baby brother. She tells him all the time. It has still been an adjustment for her though. The only times I have felt teary and hormonal is when I see her get upset that she can't have Mama right when she needs me. I can see some confusion and hurt that I could put someone else above her, like when I am breastfeeding and can't get up to help her. But on the whole we are all adjusting beautifully.

Okay, so about the baby... he is so big, yet still so tiny at the same time. He is absolutely gorgeous with tons of black (???) hair. He has my family’s nose and the cutest tiny ears. He has long toes and fingers. He is very mellow, sleeps, eats, poops, sleeps. Starting to wake up a little more now. Hardly cries. This morning, I nursed him and drifted off, he was still awake and I woke up every 15 minutes with his little face right up by mine and he was just staring at me, at the bed, out the window. He was awake for an hour and didn't cry. Just started butting me with his head when he was ready to eat again.

Anyway, that is my little monkey.